We are not giving medical advise, please consult your doctors to get help. We are just trying to provide some help for those struggling. Thank you
Healing from Spiritual abuse involves physical healing also. To cope with abuse many turn to alcohol, drugs or pornography. This applies to both sexes. Spiritual abuse or any abusive situation can push you into destructive behaviour, you may reach for things that make you feel good. Excesses with food, exercise and other extremes you practice can actually be because you are abused by religious experiences and under stress. You are not weak. It can become an addiction. This video has useful information to help you. The therapist explains how the physical brain reacts. You have gone through a lot! It got really tough!
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